Tough Love

People can say whatever they want to you. And really it is ultimately up to you to decide if you want to react to it. But when someone you love and care for deeply says these sorts of things, it messes with you and you can’t seem to let it go, regardless of whether or not it is true. And that is the worst burn of all.

It hits you where you can’t even find the spot so that you could heal.

It’s a shame that as human beings we tend to hurt the ones we love the most. Sometimes I don’t think it’d be so bad to be like…a bird or a polar bear or something. Hassle-free life in the world of nature and none of that psychology sociology I-had-a-rough-childhood-so-I'm-going-to-suppress-shit-and-project--other-shit-on-the-people-I-love bullshit.

I'm just a soul whose intentions are good. Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood.

2 of 3 sad days of the year

Yesterday was Father's Day. A week ago was my father's would-have-been-50th birthday. Although 5 1/2 years have passed, I treat these days with respect for the man that was my father. He who taught me about life and love and the will to do great things. Though his soul was once tainted, he was actually a beautiful soul. I miss him everyday and wish he was here to see how much I've grown. But I know he's watching down on me and I still am very thankful he can be with me at all times, even though I can't see or hear him. I speak to him and I know he listens.

You shine, Dad. Happy Birthday/Father's Day.

Losing my religion

Sometimes I wish I was religious just so that I had a deep understanding about certain religion-based ideas and concepts (i.e. Christianity symbols and history, Jewish history, vocabulary, people, etc...). I could easily just study all of these things, but why would I care to if I didn't believe so much in it? If I were passionate about it, I wouldn't mind learning about it. But I think once I'm done reading my current reading (Catch-22 by Joseph Heller), I'm going to read the Bible first, just for shits 'n giggles.

El Futbol Es Vida

*sniff sniff* Do you smell that? It smells like...

WORLD CUP TIME BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh smells like a good month, kids.

Who's gonna take it? A ver.

Fuck, I wish I were anywhere but the USA. All they care about is lousy "football" and not even the real kind. Fucking Americans.

p.s. If you are a football (the real kind) fan and/or like watching games, please let me know and we can check out some games at the bar, with a more fun and wilder crowd than my couches.