I'm just a soul whose intentions are good

Thursday, January 03, 2008

New job, new country, new adventures

I will be spending a hopefully wonderful year teaching English as a foreign language in the province of Gyeongbuk in the Republic of Korea (South Korea). Keep checking back for updates on my reflections, frustrations, excitements, and other experiences during my time in this small, yet beautiful country.

So for the meantime, please check out my blog about my time in South Korea: Amy in South Korea

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Day 2

6:45am - Waking up was hard. Not because I was tired but because I remembered how hungry I am and that I will feel this way for another 4 days.

8:45am - Jose is baffled at how I could be doing such a thing, despite my constant reassurances that it's healthy and beneficial for me. And plus, I've never done anything like this before and I am proud of myself for pushing through it successfully (so far). I tell him I have bonded with my jug so he tells me to decorate it. He's signing and drawing and writing something as I type. I decide to let everyone do the same.

11:07am - I just noticed I started biting my finger. Oral fixation? No. Just hungry.

12:45pm - Gilbert tells me we will have to go to BW3s when I am done. I love him.

1:09pm - I just came back from "lunch" with everyone. Surprisingly it wasn't that bad. I just drank my 2 cups and let everyone gravel at my self-discipline and strong will. GO ME! I have a million signatures with sayings on my jug--I love it! What motivation!

1:16pm - Connie just told me that the Learning Center is having a big fiesta tomorrow for the students. No food for me :(

2:05pm - I am peeing a hella lot.

2:34pm - I am tired! Not eating makes me soooo sleepy. I've been getting 8 hours too! Yawn.

4:45pm - Nayith invited me to a potluck tomorrow.

5:00pm - I am sitting at Frida's with all my co-workers. They are all plunging into the chips and salsa, margaritas, pina coladas, tacos, etc...and I am LOVING IT. It's nice how every single one of them just HAD to ask me what I was ordering. "NO PUEDO COMER CHICOS!!!"

9:24pm - Meh, this is easy. Lost 4 lbs since I started! My jug looks so nice with everyone's wonderful inspiring words, especially the one saying "Hi Amy, BW3s 4ever. Keep it real."

9:30pm - I've decided this journal is ridiculous. Shut up, Amy. There are starving kids in Africa and I'm being such a baby.

Lemon Juice Detox Diet

My sister-in-law, Khuyer, has been doing this lemon juice detox diet for a few months now. It is time that I FINALLY do it. I decided to keep a journal account of my daily thoughts and frustrations with this. It's pretty intense!

Day 1: 12/11/07

7:40am - I tell Khuyer I am not even close to hungry yet. Woohoo this is going to be fun and easy!

8:24am- I just text messaged Khuyer saying "I'm starving already!"

10:27am – First pee of the work morning. Ran into Maria—talked about how hungry I am and if I will be able to sit at lunch with everyone. It will be a true test of my strong will. Day 1 sucks. All I think about is food because I know I won't get any of it!!!!!

10:59am - I am getting antsy. Jose and Gilbert just tried it. Gilbert thought it to be interesting. Jose loved it.

1:00pm - MATC is now closed due to inclement weather. On our way home, Linda cannot wait to eat so she stops by Burger King. I am sitting in the passenger seat and she keeps throwing her bag at me to hold, thus exposing all the delicious smelling fumes right into my nostrils. Damn her!

1:30pm - Maria is waiting for her husband to pick her up at our house. She warms up her lunch--a delicious smelling potatoey soup. She's nice enough to hide her soup behind her lunch box so that I cannot see it. Little does she know that I have more than one sense...and it's called smelling. I pour into a cup and start chugging.

1:45pm - Savannah comes to the table and grabs my cup out of my hand, thinking it's juice. She takes a big gulp and MAN that face was priceless.

2:30pm - Mom is baking EIGHT yes EIGHT delicious cinnamony fresh smelling friendship bread. AHHHHHH I WANT TO RIP MY NOSE OFF!

3:00pm - Mmm I'm starting to get the hang of it.

7:30pm - Mom is remaking curry. The smell of it literally lures me into the kitchen. She also made beef stroganoff Hamburger Helper for the kids. I stare and watch them. I am partially satisfied (not really) vicariously through them. I go to my room and chug, only the cayan peppers are starting to overtake and it buuuuurns!

8:30pm - Khuyer and I proceed to make more of this delicious delicacy! WHILE EVERYONE IS MUNCHING AWAY. I'm okay with that.Or am I?

9:00pm - I tell Khuyer that I should have just started with a relaxed detox, eating one meal a day. But then I know that if I start eating, I will PIG OUT. So I stick with it. I am TOUGH! I weighed myself--lost 2 lbs!

10:30pm - I am dyyyyying. I decide to go to bed super early. Is it just me or is every damn show on television showing everyone eating food at every second of the show?

11:00pm - Just brushed my teeth. I admit, mouthwash tastes pretty damn good right now.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

'Twas a brave moment in time

I was looking for luggage in the basement for my Puerto Rico trip next week...and I found a little memoir. I think it had to be written in the final days of my elementary youth. I will share with you all my favorite part.

Special Memories of Texas

"Some special memories of Texas are imporant, special events that have happened throughout my lifetime. The most special and memorial event that has happened throughout my life was being born. Being born was very special because that gave me a chance to have a life. Thanks to my parents I can do many things with my soul."

Now if that isn't my life calling...I don't know what is. Time to go, I have a lot of offering to the world to do!!

Monday, June 04, 2007

Tag, you're it

I did it because Claire did it. And if she did it, it’s got to be worth doing. So do it.

Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed. At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

1. When I was younger, I gave my little brother stitches…twice. We were really into martial arts then. One day we were play fighting and I found my dad’s mini barbell and decided to use it as a weapon. I told my brother I would spin around and he should duck. So I spun around and sure enough, he failed to duck (had it been a real fight I surely would have been victorious). Stitch #2 came along when we indeed had a real fight and I pushed him and his head ran into the corner of a couch. Both times I succeeded in cutting open his forehead/eyebrow area.

2. I have a very sensitive collar bone area. I cannot stand the way the shoulder strap part of a seat belt clings onto my collar bone area. A lot of the time I have to hold it down lower or if I am not driving I will stick that shoulder strap part under my arm pit.

3. In all my life, I have attended 13 different schools. Because of this, 1) I can remember probably only about 1% of my teachers’ names, 2) I remember only faces of my fellow classmates (memory of names often refreshed through Facebook), 3) if I do remember people, I can’t remember what school it was from, 4) I am socially awkward and have issues with attachment, 5) I do not remember a lot of what I learned in school because I was too preoccupied with adjusting to a new environment and making friends, 6) I will be forever traumatized.

4. I cannot sleep with the closet open because my sister told me a story that when she was younger, she thought she saw me in her closet and was trying to talk to me, but then she went into my room and saw me sleeping in my own bed and so it freaked her out. I am taking every precaution necessary to not see a ghost in my closet in the middle of the night.

5. As a kid, I was a die hard baseball fanatic. Present day, I pretty much don’t give a shit about the sport. As a kid, I hated soccer because I was always being dribbled around. Present day, I pretty much consider it to be a personal religion.

6. I was lost in the woods for a few hours with my cousin and little brother when I was about 8. We thought we heard voices on the other side of a stack of wood, so upon our journey of finding them, we got lost. My cousin suggested we ask the nearby houses for help and I declined because I feared they would cook us for dinner. I also contemplated leaving my little brother crying on the ground (he was about 4) because I got tired of dragging him. The coolest part of this story was that I got to ride in the back of a dirt bike once we were found.

7. This movie was my first memory of a sex scene. The two main characters at one point were making out sort of naked, quite possibly leading to sex. I don’t remember the details because I haven’t seen it since, but I remember that it may have been the first time I was ever aroused.

8. Pretty much every day I have to take my morning shit before I leave the house, mostly out of fear and embarrassment that I may have to go later at work/school/in public. I also need to pee before and after everything I do so that I do not have to pee in the middle of whatever I am doing. This phobia stems from my shy and reserved nature that prevented me from telling the teacher I had to pee during class as a child, thus resulting in peeing in my pants in the middle of class and further creating a psychological peeing phobia for the rest of my damn life.


I tag Jamie, Uyen, Dan, Perry, Evie, Angela, Lynn, Nue. You’re all I pretty much read anyway. Do it if you want, I don’t mind reading.

Friday, May 11, 2007

Birthday extravaganza

I am happy to say that in 23 years, I have FINALLY gotten completely trashed and wasted for my birthday. I've done extremely well in achieving that state of mind on others' birthdays but never on my own. Pat on the back!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

Party Van: Mission Waffle House

Back in Texas, I used to live down the street from a Waffle House. For all my years living there, I never once stepped foot in one (I was also a child so it's not like I had a choice). A few friends of mine took a trip to FL this Spring Break and fell in love with the Waffle House. In an effort to satisfy their Waffle House yearnings (after being back in Madison for 1 week), we decided to take a mini road trip to the closest Waffle House...which is basically in the St. Louis area, 5-6 hr drive.

But due to work related circumstances as of last night (they left this morning), I am stuck at home calling restaurants and making flyers (and typing this post) while everyone else is in the Party Van listening to 2 tracks over and over and getting to go to 8 Waffle Houses.

I am bummed. So bummed.


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